Wednesday, August 31, 2005

I can tell

With Saosin - I Can Tell playing in the background...

I know that subconsciously sometimes, I make decisions unknowingly. With the subconscious decisions made comes unexpected consquences. And then I think to myself and say: "What exactly went wrong?"

My heart breaks when yours aches.

I know that deep inside me lies a vulnerable me that falters easily. I hate it, but its undeniable that practically nothing knocks me down, because I get over and done with things really quickly. Maybe that's why people like looking up for me when they have problems. Because they are usually pretty sure that I'm not troubled and hence, be in a better position to help them out. I know I'm faltering when I'm unable to say no, unable to control my emotions. Right at this moment, I'm more than satisfied to be able to see you practically everything, and feel your touch sometimes, to smell your hair, and whatnot.

And if I can't hug you, I'll make do with embracing my heart.

It pains me so, but just because I know you're in much agony and trauma.
Please believe me, I never intended for all these complexities to set in. I really didn't.

If you keep asking me I'll melt away in the summer air
It won't hurt half as much and I'll beg for you to stop it now
If you keep asking me I'll melt away in the summer air
It won't hurt half as much and I'll beg for you just tell me something

I just like the melody of this part of the song, so emo.

If only I had the strength I'd be completely accepting somebody else.

I hope it comes soon.

posted@8:32 PM

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